Well Where Have I Been Again!!!!!

In a few words not up to life!!!!!!

Sophie's birthday was a blast she was a little gem all day, I passed my theory test first time :o) so was well pleased with myself, then we got the news that my Nan had passed away the same evening which hit me really hard and was totally unexpected.

Imagine having someone special in your life since birth, other than your parents and siblings of course, someone that you hold a special place in your heart for, the soft and gentle home you can go to, the doors always open and you soak up the warmth in the atmosphere as you sit and fell a child again as they fuss about you. Well for me all that comfort is gone :o( I must admit since my Grandfather died I had felt very awkward in my Nan's presence, it was like half of her was missing and it killed me to watch her with half a happy life and struggle on alone. I didn't visit half as much as I should have what with general life and family life getting in the way and the girls and Matt and ASD, but I did write and call and send pictures and personal presents and always asked my mum to pass on messages in their Sunday chats, lol. I know she's in the right place now with my Granch, but God I don't half miss them both, what I wouldn't give to have 10 more minute with them just to ramble on about all the things I should have said and never had chance to say.

Her Funeral is now on April the 4th a long way away as the Crem's closed for road repairs, it seems almost unfair and cruel to keep us dangling and not able to say good bye, but I also understand and see their actions are right for them.

So in all I've been a little bit of an emotional mess, what with colds, sickness, sore throats, coughs, other viral things and grief, I've hardly felt up to getting out of bed let alone posting and trying to be cheery and nice.

On the up we now have Taffy my Nan's budgie, he's White Double Factor Spangle, so in other words a whole white budgie with blue eyes, :o) He talks too, in fact he doesn't stop, morning through till night he's talking away and he sounds just like my Nan with her London cross Chepstow accent, lol. He's settled in really well and so far touch wood no El incidents with him!!! woohoo progress, well at least for this week that we've had him she hasn't let him out, eaten his food or pulled his tail feather so I think he's safe, lol.