Having a Blubber

Well it's the end of El's first day at school and she had a good day, I think from, well from what I can gather anyway she had an okay day. I can't actually get her to tell me anything about her day though!!! She's just repeating what I say with "yeah" added or followed by "I know".

I had a bit of a wobble and a cry about it just after she came in, because she couldn't tell me what she had for dinner, nor her class mates names (and there's only 9 of them), she didn't know her teachers name nor the assistant even though we've been telling her for over a week with social stories and pictures to get her used to school. She just looks at you blankly trying to read your face for the answer. She couldn't even tell me if she saw my nephew Lewis, her cousin and their really close and I know he was looking forward to see her in school, he's in the next class to her and in the play ground with her, and she just couldn't say "yeah I saw him", she just looked at me as if I'd spoken another language :o( It just makes me really sad as I thought it would be the one thing she would be excited over, she's been rabbiting on all week about Lewis's school and now nothing. :o(

Well okay I had a massive cry. It really hit home how different she is and it hurts, and I've been crying on and off since she got home, my sis sorted me out earlier when I was blubbering, she told me to get a grip and it'll come in time, very subtle my sis, I know what she means, I think, but I don't want to wait I want a reaction, some emotion, just anything to know she's okay and whats going on in her world. Well enough of me!!!!

It's a long day for El as well though, out the door at 8:10am on the taxi first and back at 4:30pm being the last one dropped off, is that really long or what?? When schools 9am to 3:30pm, and it's only about 3-4 miles away just goes to show what the traffic and school runs are like around here. She came in saying "mam I hungry", stripped off as her trousers were soaking where she'd been splashing in puddles and her feet like prunes where her socks were wet. She glued herself to the telly as if she'd never seen it and then ate some pizza, had a bath and waited for Matt to come home.

I feel like an emotional wreck, not knowing what she's doing in school and if she's okay. :o( She seems happy, but then she seemed happy in her last school and look what was happening there!!!!!

Soph on the other hand has had a fab day, Uncle Stew and Bridy took her out in the car where she was the bees knees for the day, the morning was hard for her as she searched the house for El and ended up sitting in El's bed playing with some toys singing "El's in de bus in de skool" because El went to school in the MPV taxi, lol. See even when she's seems so small, she knows more than she lets on!!!!