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It's Been So Long.......

And I only remember I hadn't updated this because of Cheryl, lol. :o)

Well whats been going on, ummmmm loads, too much to mention in one go. El's now in the process of being dx'd with ADHD and PICA which she most certainly does have, so a few more things to her long list, lol. We're having a few concerns over Soph too being ASD, we don't know whether she's copying behaviour from El or just a fussy child or has ASD traits, so we're waiting for El's Paed appointment where we'll ask him his opinion on Soph. There's quiet a high risk of siblings of ASD child having it too, to varying degrees. Fingers crossed for Soph it's just a phase and nothing more, but even if it is there's no big worry she's still Soph.

Matt's having a promotion at work, a very big one, jumping 4 scales and being promoted to where his boss is now!!!!! So he's working his socks off to get it, even though the job is his anyway as he's been head hunted by the department, he's proving himself to them by working hard. So we never really see much of him in the week now for working long hours, doing overtime and being on call, next week he's earlies as well as on call and will still have overtime on top. :oS

Me well the sewing business is going well, steady stream of orders coming in keeping me busy I'm trying to make enough stock to do a craft fair, but every time I get quite a bit made up I sell a load, lol.

Right best be off, I will definitely come back and update because now I know people are reading, lol, not that I didn't with the googled analytics giving me a steady graph of comings and goings on here, lol. ;o) Right dinner is a calling and I'm starving!!!!

Half way through May already!!

MIL's in hospital again, the two weeks at SIL's didn't work resting up wise, though she was baby sitting, doing the rounds shopping with Sil, going from one Sil to the other Sil for dinner and on her feet all the time because she couldn't rest around two boisterous boys and of course Sil doesn't like being in when Bil's home so they were out every chance they got (strange marriage). No wonder a full arm cast didn't work and her bones moved out of alignment, so at her check up yesterday they decided it was pins and a frame to fix her. Would have been nice if they bothered to phone their brother though, Matt found out at 10pm last night after he called at 8pm to see how the appointment went. Both Sil's had known since 10am!!!!! By the time they told us, Mil was in hospital, had the op (huge chance of dying whilst under, due to meds and illnesses) and was on the ward sleeping. We've been delegated our visiting time only problem is it's not possible to visit while I'm out driving and Matt's got the girls so Matt's going over tonight on his own. Ohhh how I could rant about this, but no I'll bit my lip let the family get on with it, all I know is if my sister or brothers didn't tell me something like this I'd go nuts!!!!


Other news: - I've completed some of my bag orders and sent them into school, everything I sent yesterday was sold so here's hoping I sell more today and get some more orders, lol. Nothing much happening or planned here, Soph's quiet happy, trying to sleep in her fleece all the time as her ears still playing up a little, but other than that she's fine. El's on top form today, she's been up since the crack of dawn!!!! Ready and raring to go to school at 8am, jumping up and down on the door step when the taxi came, lol, she loves school and I'm so happy she does, the teachers are fab with her, the kids are lovely, the schools just perfect for her and us for that matter.

Right best get off, we've an hour with Mickey Mouse and a nap to look forward to here with Soph, lol.

Good News At Last!!!!!!!!!

Well what a turn around yesterday was, from a morning where I thought nowt else could go wrong it turned around and everything went right!!!

First off I sent an email to the blue badge people yesterday in hope, lol and we have been accepted, all I have to do is send two pics of El off and £2. The woman that called was fab, really sympathetic and knew all about El from SS's case notes and said we have 100% been accepted, wooohoooo. Just got to do the finer details of it to get it in our car now.

Then I had a text to say Cheryl's c section went well and that Eleri Rebecca-Rose Kathleen has been born at:11.22 am and mum, baby and dad were doing well. CONGRATS to both Cheryl and Mark and massive cuddles to Eleri, Mim and Rhi!!!!! And yep I've seen the pic's she's stunning, a real beauty another precious rose in the family, Mark your gonna need massive muscles to fight off all the boys knocking your front door for them when their older. lol.

Also had call from El's school wanting me to send some of my hand made bags in for the kids, so sent them in today and had another call saying their all placing orders, teachers, kids, council staff, everyone there wants one, wooohooo. It's strange though showing someone your work, I was so embarrassed sending my things in, things I'd made, it took me ages to pick samples, lol. And then for them to phone saying they loved them and the kids in school were going crazy about them and the staff were like wild things going through the designs, I was like OMFG!!!!! lol. Well work is work and money is money and for a thanks to them, cos it's El's teachers that started this I've offered my sewing hands to help in class, making aprons, dressing up things and curtains and bits for the class.

Then my mum phoned with brill news, which I can't go into yet cos we're waiting on one thing to happen, don't want to jinx ourselves, but lets just say we're ecstatic, we really are. Justice is being done at last!!! Then a whole new chapter or should that be saga will begin, lol.

I also became a committee member for our local PALS this week, minimum term is 3 years so here I go, lol. I'm now busily coming up with fund raising ideas and trying to find and organising grants etc as well as looking for donations for things we need to get going, we have a new permanent base to call home and desperately need equipment for the office and play areas as well as gardens, not to mention man power!!!

So all in all yesterday wasn't too bad, though my mind is made up I've left said forum and you know what they haven't even noticed, lol, that's how much I'm missed. With friends like that who needs enemies right!!

On Top Of Everthing Now This............

.........................we've been turned down by the children's disability social workers team again!!!!

This is the second time now, shes been turned down by the panel, though we've yet to be given a reason. To say I'm gutted is an understatement!!!!! I sort of knew when she came to assess us that we wouldn't go far as she kept commenting on the fact we lived in an area she hadn't been to before for work and that she said we were middle class compared to her usual clients :o( Sorry we're not middle class though, we're a normal working class family thats struggling with things and then she turns us down and on top of everything right now I've had enough.

I could happily close the door, shut down the internet and hide away right now.

Somtimes you just know when...............

.....................you gotta go!!!!

And I think my time may be now.

As most people do I post on a few forums, I mod a few, I'm a regular member of others, I'm active and take part in all the usual board things that go on and generally all over my face fits and I'm happy and have good friends, but there's one, just one where it doesn't and quite frankly it's getting to me. I've been a member there for over 8 months and I'm in the same boat as every other member there, I have a child with the same condition as theirs, I face the same hurdles as they do, I get the same joy and happiness from seeing my daughter achieve something as well as the sadness, anger and hurt she can give me and yet I'm an outsider!!!!!

Unanswered posts, ignored or just laughed at, picked upon or I get a two line comment pulling fun of something and honestly it sometimes feels like a school yard where if your not in the "in crowd" and your face doesn't fit then your pushed to the way side and cast out. Here we are fighting for our children and their futures and saying how big and brave we are standing up to "big brother" to get results when their doing this to other members, it's pathetic and just plain nasty and horrible and they will and should be ashamed of their actions.

I make a point of replying to what I can, giving every member support, passing on advice and tips where I've been helped before on certain things, helping people out, being there when anyone in need calls for a shoulder to cry on or answering their questions ohhhhhhh and passing on bloody great details of how to do things and get more help and yet I can't get the same decency back.

Well I get the hint!!!!!

I've had enough!!!!!!

No doubt those concerned will find this and be reading and I don't care, it's about time you knew the truth, for too long I've been thinking "no it's in my head", but when you post something and get 2 replies and over 60 hits on the page or post something else and get NO replies and over 30 hits, you kinda can get the hint. There's no need to mail and ask where I am or if I'm referring to the board you post on because I'm sure the guilty ones will know and make it clear with some topical debate on a matter very similar to this.

So good bye cruel board, it's good night from me.

Members of that board I hope your children get everything they deserve, want and need out of life, they deserve happiness and peace. For you members I hope what goes around comes around and one day when you feel no one is listening, helping you out or supporting you when you've shown it to them that you feel like me right now and are disgusted with yourselves for making another person feel such things.

Ahhh that's better.................... it's off my chest and I can move on to better and broader fields, Adios.

Whats going on!!??

I do not know!!!

Gees where do I start.

So much is happening I'm sure my head is spinning on my shoulders some days.

Joking aside though it's true, half the time I'm either a day ahead of myself and don't know what I'm doing nor what day it actually is or I'm chasing my tail going over things I've already done and a day behind playing catch up then.

And gosh I haven't been on for over a month, thats ages and it feels like such a shot time, though my days are dragging!!!!

Right Update (ready for this mammoth, lol)

The girls don't stop fighting and at 4 and 2 it's really physical, Soph's biting lumps out of El in frustration all the time, because El has a total disregard for her and her needs and wants, so then El will kick her or punch her and then Soph pulls her hair, and they both end up crying and being put on the stairs or having the TV off etc. Ohhhhhhh it's never ending everyday is the same and I dread the weekends when El's off school. I'm a referee now, not mum all I say is "girls stop it, your sisters, leave her alone, don't do that, stop!!!!!" even Taffy the blinking budgie shouts "the girls" and " your sisters". Now though El thinks she can get away with anything by saying "but mummy I love you" with a deep and meaningful yet shrilling cry and Soph by saying "I promise mammy" with fluttery eye lashes, Ohhhhhh My Girls they do try to wrap us round their fingers.

To say when their together their doing my head in is an understatement. Though for the past 3 days they've actually been quiet good because their ill!!!!! El been quiet poorly with a really bad cough thats just comes and goes and has done for 4 weeks now and yet this week it's taken a step up a gear and not let up. So off we went to the GP expecting anti-b's, but now she's on steroids for her asthma (brown pump) instead as well as her blue pump both with different chambers (which are huge, where do you store them) and allergy meds aswell as regular calpol and cough meds for now to clear her chesty cough. Doc says she's an allergic/coughing asthmatic and wants to see her next week if there's no improvement in her, he's pretty sure thats what she is as her symptoms are 10 times worse after about 5 o'clock which he says is classic asthma as it attacks at night, her chest sounds clear and yet her cough is chesty/phlegmie suggesting asthma again. She spends all night now coughing, being sick (coughing too much) and crying out being unsettled, though today she woke up at 11am Thats how ill she is, my girl that gets up at the crack of dawn is sleeping in till nearly dinner!!!

So right now she's off school, though the stupid education people gave us a number to call if ever El had a day off to inform her transport (good ole Arthur), we'd been phoning this number every morning at 7am and leaving messages and yet the bus was still coming (not that we saw as we've been in bed at that time, but found out it was still coming to the street). I finally saw El handler on the bus yesterday in town and explained to her only to find out they'd given us totally the wrong number and the number we'd been calling was never registered to the company. I called the company as she gave me a card with the number on, I apologized profusely explained what happened and the guy said lucky I called as if El were to miss so many days without notice, transport would have been canceled all together!!!!! Feck's at education!!!! I will shoot off a complaint ot them thats for sure.

Soph okay just has a mild cough so she's just got over the counter meds and she'll bounce back in no time as always, but at least their unwell enough not to fight at the mo.

Also last Saturday was our first daughter 8th birthday/anniversary which was a total mixed bag of emotions, it's the first year that I've felt empowered and strong on the run up to her day and didn't fall apart like a blubbering wreak, (that was afterwards on Sunday). Saturday we did the usual at her grave side, placed flowers, tidied up, looked at the other Angel's graves, so many new ones in such a short space of time, bring you down with a bump, you know. And then we took the girls to an outdoor museum called St Fagan's for the day where we sat by the lake and walked around the castle and houses there, went on a horse and cart ride, looked around the farm, threw a pot and had family fun.

It was a pretty chilled day considering everything that was going on back home.

3 days before that MIL was knocked over by some lad running into the jobcentre and snapped her hand off (ok wasn't literally snapped off, but every bone was broke in her wrist and only her skin was keeping it on ). So she spent until Saturday in hospital, had 3 hours of manipulation and x rays under local and gas and air and was plastered upto her arm pit. They can't put her under as she would probably have complications now given the meds she's on for cancer treatment, heart attacks, oestio-thingymawotsit and a few other things, and if this last manipulation doesn't work it's a calculated risk putting her under to fix it with a mechano set, so heres to her cons appointment next Wednesday, where the x ray will show it's knitting together hopefully.

Think thats it apart from a few other personal bits between me and hubs, lots of cross words, making up, more cross words etc, we're having a tough time tbh. He's having a rough trot in work some collegues playing up and having affairs, causing a mess, put that with his head finally coming out of the sand about El and well you've got a stressed man. He's never needed to understand before now because I've done everything that needs doing from controlling her, teaching her, appointments and Dr's, basically everything and now I telling him I'm not coping alone anymore he has to acknowledge things and help out, not that he doesn't help out at all, he just doesn't know how to do things the right way with El, iykwim. They clash too much and end up storming away from each other rather than sorting anything out.

Ooooohhhhhhhh nearly forgot the biggy, our case against El's old school is nearly over and a solicitor will be involved on our behalf, we're seeking out a good ASD knowledgeable solicitor in South Wales right now, my mum's on the case for that. We're probably going to sue for discrimination because of a disabilty, bullying, and a few other things like management ignoring us and not taking our concerns seriously nor acknowledging El had a problem.

So here's to their day in court when we'll walk away smiling.

Right think I've updated enough, lol.

Will have to pick myself up and update more regularly.

Well Where Have I Been Again!!!!!

In a few words not up to life!!!!!!

Sophie's birthday was a blast she was a little gem all day, I passed my theory test first time :o) so was well pleased with myself, then we got the news that my Nan had passed away the same evening which hit me really hard and was totally unexpected.

Imagine having someone special in your life since birth, other than your parents and siblings of course, someone that you hold a special place in your heart for, the soft and gentle home you can go to, the doors always open and you soak up the warmth in the atmosphere as you sit and fell a child again as they fuss about you. Well for me all that comfort is gone :o( I must admit since my Grandfather died I had felt very awkward in my Nan's presence, it was like half of her was missing and it killed me to watch her with half a happy life and struggle on alone. I didn't visit half as much as I should have what with general life and family life getting in the way and the girls and Matt and ASD, but I did write and call and send pictures and personal presents and always asked my mum to pass on messages in their Sunday chats, lol. I know she's in the right place now with my Granch, but God I don't half miss them both, what I wouldn't give to have 10 more minute with them just to ramble on about all the things I should have said and never had chance to say.

Her Funeral is now on April the 4th a long way away as the Crem's closed for road repairs, it seems almost unfair and cruel to keep us dangling and not able to say good bye, but I also understand and see their actions are right for them.

So in all I've been a little bit of an emotional mess, what with colds, sickness, sore throats, coughs, other viral things and grief, I've hardly felt up to getting out of bed let alone posting and trying to be cheery and nice.

On the up we now have Taffy my Nan's budgie, he's White Double Factor Spangle, so in other words a whole white budgie with blue eyes, :o) He talks too, in fact he doesn't stop, morning through till night he's talking away and he sounds just like my Nan with her London cross Chepstow accent, lol. He's settled in really well and so far touch wood no El incidents with him!!! woohoo progress, well at least for this week that we've had him she hasn't let him out, eaten his food or pulled his tail feather so I think he's safe, lol.

Soooooo where have I been..................

In one word ILL

Yep me friends I'm ill, yet a bloody gain and it's doing my head in now, never seems to fully leave me and then comes back just as I think I'm okay!!!! Arghhhhh nightmare times, I'm really fed up of popping pills and sucking throat sweets!!!!

The weeks been okay so far, Sophie's birthday tomorrow, 2 tomorrow, doesn't seem like we've had her that long, lol. So been busy getting little bits together for her, chatting on the net in the evenings and of course feeding the hungry hoards when they get in. Didn't have my driving lesson again this week, the BSM instructor let me down again so I complained and got a new one, testing him out on Monday 2:30pm!!!

The Weekend: - no different from any other, went out a little later than usual with Em, got in late as usual, wasn't that drunk either but had a good night.

Oh I'm sooooo spoilt

And I know it!!!! :o) lol.

We've been looking at getting a new camcorder, but you know what it's like do we get the mini dv, hi 8, hdd or dvd. Well I did a bit of research and decided on one last night, Currys do a payment plan so I thought bugger the price I'll pay it off in 10 months :o) Matt had half day so took me to Currys where I pointed out the one I wanted the Sony DVD106E, lush!!!!!! I started to chase Soph around the store then cos she was getting bored of waiting for the guy to serve us, popping back to see how Matt was doing. Kind of figured out that Matt was being served and now he was haggling, oh the shame!!!! Well I got my dvd camcorder the one I wanted, ex display as it was the last one, but as the camera only came into the store today, hey it had only been there a few hours, I also had a case and 6 dvd's, so loaded and ready to go for a fabulous price as Matt did actually get his discount, lol. What a man!!! lol Though when he does his haggle which btw he does in nearly every shop he can, I just die it's so embarrassing I want the ground to open up and swallow me and yet he saves us pounds he's a cheeky sod my man. Suppose that's why I love him, :o)

Whats been going on here then??

Not a lot really, lol :o)

Well El's doing well in school, loving the bus ride to and from school more than school it's self I think, she still isn't talking about her days or anything for that matter, though yesterday she didn't mention her teacher's name!! woohooo!!! Oh and we've had a Clio out of her, don't know whether it's a friend or a car!!?? Ummm will hopefully speak to her teacher soon to find out, though I know she's doing well as I've messages coming home with my nephew, who says she's got lots of friends, but he doesn't play with her cos he's a boy and she can't run fast, lmao. Kids !!!! :o)

She's coming out with some strange facts though since starting. Yesterday we saw my bro's girlf and she was in her beauticians outfit, now El knows Bridy and yet turned to her and said "oh hello Dr, you gonna kill people or take babies out of mummies tummies" lol, haven't a clue where she got that from other than school. She was adamant that Bridy was a Dr in her white top and kept quizzing her on killing people and babies!! Very strange topic's for a reception class to chat about, think it may well be playground talk from other children, lol. Their topic's that are going to stick in her head a good while then cos she loves Dr's, I'm sure she has white coat syndrome!!

Soph's being a darling as usual, she's had her catch up jab, though punched the Nurse in the face and told her to "get off" and "stop it" as the needle went in, lol. Don't blame her the needle was huge and going in her little tiny arm and I hate needles, she didn't half cry while it was being done and a little bit afterwards, poor buggar. Had her weighed and measures whilst there and she's 87 cm tall and 27lbs 3 oz so right smack bang on target for her age. Got her development check now on the 23rd which she'll fly, she's so far forward and chatty. it's only now I'm see just how different my girls are, Soph's so in front of herself and you can have a conversation with her, she understands everything you say and is really quiet sensible for her age, which sounds strange, but she knows to hold hands and that roads are dangerous and cars can hurt you. So, so different from El who'll run into roads, refuse to hold hands and pull you along on the wrist strap, but that's where the understanding of social and day to day life comes in and El doesn't understand that yet, while Soph does.

Matt's working his butt off in work as usual, taking half day today if possible, so we can go get a new dvd camcorder as our others broken :o( not a happy bunny the viewers gone, it's picking up sound and playing tapes and recording but it's just black and yes the lens caps off!!!! lol. Will take it to Walters Photography to see if they can repair it, if so we'll sell it or El can have it for her animations and scenes she makes, lol.

What else, ummmmm nothing much out of the ordinary really, the usual cooking, cleaning, washing, diy-ing, painting, making beds and potching about. Keeping busy going for walks and actually having a nap when Soph lets me, ohhhhh the bliss of a quiet house!!! It's really bittersweet at the moment cos I miss El so much and can see just how different she is, but I welcome this break and quiet time. What am I going to do for school holidays!!?? lol :o)

Tuesday!!!!! My fave day of the week.

Well what can I say about today?

Lets see, El's second morning of school and it's started, meltdowns already!!!!!! Major style, she kicked off, cried, screamed, moaned, fussed and struggled, she proclaimed she didn't want to get dressed, she didn't want anything to eat, she would not go to the loo or brush her teeth. And yet after all that and finally struggling to get her dressed, washed and ready for school, she happily skips into the taxi without a backwards glance and not a chance of a goodbye wave!!!! Her teacher phoned after dinner to say she hadn't eaten anything, but that she thoroughly enjoyed horse riding and could they take her on a school trip that afternoon with cameras to take pictures!!! WOW an amazing school or what!!?? 2 trips in one day, lucky kids.

Soph's been a gem all day, she's a chatty little character when El's not about, full of life and quirky little ways, she talks my head off all day now, I don't raise my voice or ever have to tell her no, she just seems to know whats what and goes about her day in her own little way, lol.

Clearing Something Up.

Right here we have it.............................lol.

A few friends and people have emailed or dropped a message by saying , oh El will talk, let her settle and she's tell you everything and you'll be okay, she'll get there and open up and excitedly tell you everything. Well the truth is it won't happen.

Yes El can talk, she can speak and she can convey her wants and can chat away as if nothing is wrong with her, but the fact is she can't talk from the top of her head. She can't say what she's done, where she's been, how she feels, who she's been with, what she ate. Her language is a learnt repetitive language, phrases she picks up from other people, the tv, songs, daily life things, but nothing, none of what she says is her's and this is my daughters language, this is called Echolalia.

To people on the outside she seems chatty, knowledgeable, grown up, but most of all NORMAL, well question her and see what happens. She can't tell you or explain or elaborate, she can talk about dinosaurs for hours, but you ask her a question and she looks at you vaguely not having a clue what you've said. She's clever, intelligent and a little too quick, she gets away using her language and people think nothing of it, she uses her echolalia in the right context and where she knows certain things/answers have to follow certain questions/words, just wander off the beaten track and what she does know and you confuse her beyond belief.

I can't communicate with my daughter without having to ask her over and over and over again until I know she knows what I mean or I just give up, I can't just ask her a simple question and get an answer. She will never tell me all the things children do, because she just doesn't know how and it kills me to not hear it all. I know in time she will learn and we will get there, but for now I just can't stop thinking about all the things she should be saying and telling me, all the things I should know are going on, her feelings, emotions, her joys and saddnesses.

It's like living in silence and it's deafening at times!!!

Having a Blubber

Well it's the end of El's first day at school and she had a good day, I think from, well from what I can gather anyway she had an okay day. I can't actually get her to tell me anything about her day though!!! She's just repeating what I say with "yeah" added or followed by "I know".

I had a bit of a wobble and a cry about it just after she came in, because she couldn't tell me what she had for dinner, nor her class mates names (and there's only 9 of them), she didn't know her teachers name nor the assistant even though we've been telling her for over a week with social stories and pictures to get her used to school. She just looks at you blankly trying to read your face for the answer. She couldn't even tell me if she saw my nephew Lewis, her cousin and their really close and I know he was looking forward to see her in school, he's in the next class to her and in the play ground with her, and she just couldn't say "yeah I saw him", she just looked at me as if I'd spoken another language :o( It just makes me really sad as I thought it would be the one thing she would be excited over, she's been rabbiting on all week about Lewis's school and now nothing. :o(

Well okay I had a massive cry. It really hit home how different she is and it hurts, and I've been crying on and off since she got home, my sis sorted me out earlier when I was blubbering, she told me to get a grip and it'll come in time, very subtle my sis, I know what she means, I think, but I don't want to wait I want a reaction, some emotion, just anything to know she's okay and whats going on in her world. Well enough of me!!!!

It's a long day for El as well though, out the door at 8:10am on the taxi first and back at 4:30pm being the last one dropped off, is that really long or what?? When schools 9am to 3:30pm, and it's only about 3-4 miles away just goes to show what the traffic and school runs are like around here. She came in saying "mam I hungry", stripped off as her trousers were soaking where she'd been splashing in puddles and her feet like prunes where her socks were wet. She glued herself to the telly as if she'd never seen it and then ate some pizza, had a bath and waited for Matt to come home.

I feel like an emotional wreck, not knowing what she's doing in school and if she's okay. :o( She seems happy, but then she seemed happy in her last school and look what was happening there!!!!!

Soph on the other hand has had a fab day, Uncle Stew and Bridy took her out in the car where she was the bees knees for the day, the morning was hard for her as she searched the house for El and ended up sitting in El's bed playing with some toys singing "El's in de bus in de skool" because El went to school in the MPV taxi, lol. See even when she's seems so small, she knows more than she lets on!!!!

She Gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

El's first day in school has started.

And I don't know whether to cry because I do actually miss her or smile because I'm so happy she's in school and mixing with children and learning. She went without a care in the world, the assistant knocked the door, took her by the hand to the bus, opened the door and in she jumped, she said "hello" to the driver and "where we going? we going school", sat down, put her belt on and didn't even wave or shout good bye to us, off she went happy as can be. It's now 10 o'clock and the school haven't phoned so things must be going well, though I am itching to phone to see how things are going, think I can hold it off for a few hours and may phone around dinner time, lol.

Got my driving lesson today at 1pm so if your reading and local GET OFF THE ROAD!!!!!! Got my theory booked for the 15th of March, eeekkk, hope I pass!!!! I need to pass!!!! I need to drive, so pray for me, lol.

The Weekend

Once again it came around too fast and disappeared in a flash.

Saturday was a quiet homely day, watching some new films that were delivered, El wanted King Kong which lasted 3 hours and then we watched Witches, though she was only interested in the mouse bits, lol. We had had fun and played games and just chilled with the girls and let them do their own thing. A lot of it was spent preparing El for school, lots of chats, pictures, showing her the route and her things to take in her bag and then getting a bag she actually like and sewing her name on it, lol. Mad mum moment I think!! :o)

Saturday night I went out with Em as usual on the town, painting it red and met up with Matt later, we danced our butts off from 9:30 to 1:30am, lol, must have lost a few calories there!!!! Though we didn't drink too much, I only spent about 15 to 20 quid on vodka and cokes and that's including buying Matt a few drinks too at the end of the night too. Em got off with a lovely Scottish bloke, he was a good catch and seemed really nice, friendly gave her plenty of attention all night, but it didn't last more than 24 hours when he admitted he had a girlfriend, what a plonker why do men do that!!?? I totally feel for Em now, cos she feels she did wrong when she didn't even know what she was doing, men!!!!!!!! We watched the lunar eclipse which was amazing, Big Bo, made us watch it and got us out of the pub to see it and only let us back in once he was satisfied we'd seen it, lol. Was quiet nice actually to get out and have a bit of fresh air the pub was steaming hot!!! I think we rolled in at about 3am all because Matt decided to run the bar and serve everyone, restock the fridges, till up, and generally take over, lol. I don't know what the heck he was doing tbh, but we got home late!!!

Sunday I awoke to my man yet again snoring his head off, no hang over though!!! Cos I stopped drinking at 11pm, :o) See I am sensible and I slept all night too, whoooo hooooo. The girls were darlings for once, really good as gold, helpful and playing nicely, no fighting, that was until Daddy got up, why do kids play up when there's two adults in the room??

Had El help me make cooked dinner and deserts, chocolate mouse with whipped cream and raspberries, yummmmyyyy!!!!! :o) And then we spent the afternoon once again going through the school routine while Matt watched Top Gear, just so El was a little more settled and happy within herself.

Happy St David's Day

The 1st of March already!!!

Happy St David's Day Everyone.

Nothing much planned here to celebrate the day, just chilling out with the girls, having a nice home cooked meal and having some good family time. We're going to make some mugs and money boxes, paint them and fire them so we can give them to family for Easter, home made "kid's art" gifts, can't beat it, better than bleeding chocolate eggs coming out of your ears.

I think I had the worst night in history last night with hubs and his snoring, if anyone has a cure please post it, I'm dying here while we wait for Dr's to sort it. We went up to bed at 11pm and I think I clock watched all night and finally gave in and got up at 6:30am, I still haven't slept, nor has he offered to watch the girls while I go back to bed. If you've ever had murderous thoughts it must have been when the person next to you is so fast asleep and snoring so loudly that you could suffocate them just to get 30mins sleep. He wakes the girls, Soph's wakes crying thinking it's a dinosaur or dragon in the house when it's her Dad snoring and El wakes comes into our room and tells him to "shut up!!". It's getting beyond a joke now and it's definitely grounds for divorce, isn't it, lol.

Well thats it.....................

Yep El's starting school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think Soph's birthday celebration will be a joint "do" now to celebrate El finally getting into a school and us having a weight off our shoulders.

Visited Oaklands yesterday and I have to say it's FAB!!!!!!!! The Headmaster is great really down to earth, approachable and talkative, couldn't ask for a better Head than him, he made us fell very welcome when he showed us around and he was great with El. Her teacher and her nursery nurse are lovely too, really nice people and again down to earth and chatty, I just know we won't have any problems there at all. Their just so open and forthcoming with information and welcome parents to do the same, they have an open door policy and would rather see you face to face everyday than never, they'd rather you phoned to check up every afternoon than not phone at all. And because El's going back and forth via taxi the teachers willing to do a sort of letter swapping with me to keep in touch, so I may get El a special little book to put in her bag to send messages to her teacher and so she can send them back, rather that bits of paper everywhere, lol.

The do all the sports from Football to Rugby and even have the Welsh Squad in to train them!!! only cos an ex pupil is in it and is loyal to the school, I just want to know when their there to meet them!! They do horse riding every Tuesday, join in all the normal school things with the regular classes like PE, assembly, plays, drama etc, so I feel she's going to love it there, she joined in with the class and made friends as soon as she set foot in the class. She walked in and the Headmaster called the teacher over before she got to us, El sprang into the room, shouting "Ta Da, I'm Elle, you guys, nice to meet you" lol, bold as brass my girl :o)

So we're now waiting for the LEA to sort a taxi out and then she's in, they want us to wait nearly 2 weeks for them to sort it, but we've told them Monday at the latest it's only got to do one more stop to get El it's not like she needs a car to herself and get this the school wanted her today!!!! :o) See said it was a fab school, lol.

What else umm..................... nothing really, had a busy day yesterday one car in for it's MOT, the other being potched with by Hubs, why is it men see "day off = oh...... tinker with car!!!" lol. And not day off, maybe I'll help the misses a little, do the dinner, pick up after myself and not moan, lmao. Men!!!!

Today: -
Well today we're doing the usual end of the month shopping, one trip to Makro for the bulk and then Asda ohhhh...... the joys, just waiting for Kirsty to phone to say she's ready to have the girls, not taking them in this "pee poor weather" it's awful outside not to mention they fight the entire time we're out.

What a Weekend

Phew.................... where do I start!!!
Saturday was spent clothes shopping in the morning and then a few hours at nanny and granddad's for the girls to run their legs off and shout and scream until they could scream no more, wore them out for the babysitters you see, lol.

Saturday night was a blast!!!!!!!!!!!! Wales lost, but hey we had a good time anyway, us girls out on the town. We drank, danced, drank some more and then danced a little bit more until the dance floor was empty and only we were on it, lol, it was nearly 1:30am by then mind. Em was left in the capable hands of Lee, Kirsty and Chris wandered home in stoopers, Sarah was picked up by Owain and Sian had a lift home early, hubs and myself somehow ended up back home after what felt like an eternity walking up that hill to the house, lol.

A great night was had by all I think, it was good fun going out in a large girl group running from pub to pub to avoid getting drenched in the rain, which wasn't very successful, lol. Drinking with Em isn't a great idea if you don't want to get drunk, come 10 we were all leg less I think, Sarah cracked on with JD and Coke, yuck!!!! whilst we all swapped to bottles so we could dance and not throw drinks at each other, which is what normally happens if we have glasses.

Sunday was spent recovering, but my lovely sis stayed and made a fabulous dinner for us the full works, roasties and everything, she's a gem!!!!

Today: -
I phoned El's new school, we have a viewing tomorrow and I must say her teacher sounds great, really friendly and guess what, they go horse riding in the centre we take her to, every Tuesday morning they go!!!! She'll be over the moon, I can't wait to get her there, she'll be so happy and we will too.

Had my driving lesson this afternoon, did really well, passed my mock theory so have to do the real thing now, so that's got to be booked, did lots of three point turns, hill starts and as usual loads of driving up and down the A470 and head of valley's roads, but I still hate driving into my own street.

Not much else happening really, lots to do tomorrow so maybe I'll have a bigger blog session then, when I'm feeling better, we're all a bit ill here at the mo, so not with it, lol.

My First Time........................

Blogging that is, my first blog.

Well haven't a clue where to start, the beginning would be too far away and take me a year to write, lol, so how about this week? Well the week started really well, considering we've been invaded by some lurgy and all come down ill. Soph's been hit hardest and is still ill, chesty, grumpy and generally being a pain in the arse with it at all times, I know she's in the Klingon phase, but now she's a moaning Klingon that just won't stop crying if anyone come near me.

We had a letter at last from Education giving El a placement at Oaklands Primary, so roll on school for her, we've only waited 9 months for them to sort themselves out since we pulled her out of her last useless school that shall remain nameless. She'll be in mainstream, but will have special supported classes, so just have to get her statemented now which is going to be another fight I think looking at the way this authority run things which is pathetic to say the least. We can't wait for her to start though, what a relief it was to get that letter!!!!! She'll finally be in school, mixing with children, learning, playing and having fun, well........... I hope all that happens because I don't want another fight on my hands with another school.

We've had SaLT this week too, where El was finally reassessed ready for school, she came out at 3 years and 9 months for her speech and understanding when she's 4 years and 9 months, so to us a significant delay that needs therapy, whether or not we get it is another thing, we waited over 12 months for 5 block therapy sessions that have been useless as they haven't listened to us. We will wait and see and live in hope hey!!!

Had my second driving lesson this week, 2 hours of driving through small Welsh towns and up carriage ways, over mountains and around roundabouts, lol. Getting much better though and improving according to the instructor, didn't do too many cock ups and did my hill starts perfectly, just have to crack on with my theory now which I'm being tested on next week, eeekkk!!!! Is the world ready for this crazy Welsh mother on the streets in control of a car!!?? lmao.

Today: -
As of 7am this morning when El crawled into our bed I could tell she had come down ill through the night. I knew straight away she was off colour just by her smell, why is a mothers instinct so spot on? I just knew, I could tell from this strange odour she gives off, it's like a sweet sickly smell, she always gets it when she's ill and always has, strange that!! So I can see another 4-5 days of her being ill with high temps and us being quarantined, the girls and I are having PJ days then by the looks of it, no problem there I can do them, I'd say I was an expert by now.

Matt, the hubs, is having half day today and working nearer home doing police HQ's closer to us than the main HQ where he's usually based, which means he'll be home mega early today if nothing goes wrong that is. Don't know what we're doing tonight, he's not going out because of the Rugby tomorrow and it being an all day event, so perhaps we'll have yet another take out or I may be the good little house wife and actually cook tonight.